Look, whom she best endow'd she gave the more..

Wow. Seriously. It has been 4 months since the last post of this blog.
Reading Shakespeare's Sonnet XI had actually triggered me to update this blog. Do not ask me why.=)
Well, so many things happen in the past 4 months. Lets recap:

June

I received surprise roses and a cake from my bestfriend. It was so sweet, it really made my day.=)

July

My high school friends Salimah & Nafis got married! Oh my God. They are such a good combination and are meant to be together.=))

My brother had an accident. His motorcycle bumped into this car. Alhamdulillah, he's recovering.


August

Bought a new sofa for my parents from my first bonus. Alhamdulillah. At least that was the best I could do for them. Putih also loves it.meow.

 Our raya celebration was as sweet and exciting as ever. 4 of us.=)


September

Gold price stikes!! haiyai yaii..=D

Among my closest friends in UKM, Syidah had made her first move. She's engaged. we're so happy for her. Wondered when is my turn? hmmm.=p



Well also other stuffs that I couldn't attached the pics here:

My cheap groupon trips with my office girls to A'Famosa Melaka.
Hayani's wedding
My first attempt making cheese tarts for Father's day.=p


Thats all I guess.=)

As fast as thou shalt wane, so fast thou growest
In one of thine, from that which thou departest;
And that fresh blood which youngly thou bestowest
Thou mayst call thine when thou from youth convertest.
Herein lives wisdom, beauty and increase:
Without this, folly, age and cold decay:
If all were minded so, the times should cease
And threescore year would make the world away.
Let those whom Nature hath not made for store,
Harsh featureless and rude, barrenly perish:
Look, whom she best endow'd she gave the more;
Which bounteous gift thou shouldst in bounty cherish:
  She carved thee for her seal, and meant thereby
  Thou shouldst print more, not let that copy die.

william shakespeare: Sonnet XI 

Should or Shouldn't I?

I am not a good decision maker. I doubt about so many things in life. Normally when I have to choose between 2 major things I WILL ALWAYS seek others' opinion. I am never good at making decision. Never. (well, accept when it comes to shopping, I am always sure of what I have choosed to buy.haha) As independent as I may look, deep down I am rather a confused girl. My mother said my future husband would have to bear with me because I make changes in every seconds of life and I am never going to stick to one stand! =(

This afternoon I had a team meeting together with the big boss. And suddenly they give me this big shocking news that I didn't know how to react to. Should I feel happy? sad? nervous? I just didn't know. This is a major life-changing decision that I have to make. Will it make progression to my career? Now, I have no clue. Does this shows that someone superior than my manager is seeing my potential? Maybe, 40% of me said yes. Am I ready and confident enough for it? My answer would be yes and no.

My line manager was a bit concern about this, so we had this 'peep talk', where she gave so many tips and she was quite open to me: she did pin points the areas that I need to improve on. I clarified everything to her, telling about my plan and seeking her honest opinion. It was a good talk, but in between the lines, I could see that she was quite upset about the news. So here you go..a typical me, feeling guilty and torn in between.

That was when I thought of performing Istikharah, hoping that everything I do, anything I have decided on, is for the better and is approved by Allah. I once read an article by Tok Guru Harun Din that this is something that a muslim should do constantly in daily life, not only when he/she has to make major choices. But being a human, especially a negligent person like me, Istikharah is not what I always have in practice.=(

Anyway, this is what I have found in youtube, where I would love to share with those who read this post and especially to those who have to make major life-changing decisions: whether to undertake a major project or not, whether to apply for a promotion or not, whether to change career or not, whether to invest in a certain company or not, whether to get married or not, whom to get married to, etc.

It is not necessary that you get a dream or even a “feeling.” Rather, the istikharah is a prayer that Allah guides you towards that which is best (khayr) for you. If you do the prayer of guidance (istikharah) with the proper manners, the most important of which is to truly consign the matter to Allah and suspend your own inclinations, then Allah will make events unfold in the direction that is the best for your worldly and next-worldly affairs.

In general, when it is not possible to perform the istikhara prayer itself (such as when one is out on the road, or in one’s menstrual period), it is recommended to simply read the dua itself. [Radd al-Muhtar]

Another video that I'd like to share in this post:

Al- 'Alim

Afif Razizul'iman

Raidhatul Afifah

These two pictures represent my tuition brother and sister. They're well behave and respect the elders, bravo to the mother who had tought them well when they're kids.;) Aren't they the cutest thing on earth??? (well, second cutest, the first one is my Putih).

Anyway, they're twins. Whenever I see twins, they'll always remind me of my mother. First, because my mom has a twin brother that looks exactly like her (duh!) and whenever my uncle is sad and sick, she'll somehow feel the pain too! Spooky right?.

Secondly, my mom once had a miscarriage of twins (two girls). Yes, Allah love my sisters so much that they 'went' first before we even had a chance to see them.='(  After my brother was born, doctor had decided that my mom had a very weak uterus and one of the ovaries had to be taken out from her. I think it was an ovarian teratoma or something, I am not quite sure until now. After my brother, my mother had been adviced not to give birth anymore. As sad as it sound, I believe that she is grateful to have us in her life.=)

It is still fresh in my mind, that particular night, I was awake at 12.30am to hear my mom's crying with blood on the sofa. My dad had just finished reciting Al-Quran (he always did that when I was little, everynight until I fell asleep) when the incident happened. I swear it was the scariest night, and I was traumatized for few months. Imagine how it had impacted my mother. My dad had to be strong for my mother. He was with us all along the way, giving support and lending his shoulder for my mom to cry on. Until another 'star' came into our lives 4 years after that, my one and only brother.=)

Allah The Knowledgeable; the One for Whom nothing is hidden from His Knowledge (Al-'Alim)

I honestly believe that people and their Iman can be improved, depending on the environment. In my case it is with whom I am mingling with in my daily lives. Those who are good, will give good impact to me..and those who are not, will bring this bad influence to me, which I am quite scared of. But Alhamdulillah, in my 24 years of life, I have met a lot of friends that had helped me spiritualy. And of course, there are times when I started to go far away from Him, without me realising it, that is when Allah helps me to discover friends that are again, can help and guide me back to the route that I should be on. People coming and going from our life, unexpectedly but the values stays deep within our hearts.

I also believe that our soul and body belongs to Allah, when the time comes, the body and soul will go back to Him. The sooner, the better. There will be times when we have to loose someone we love so much,it will be hard for some of us. Nothing is hidden from His knowledge. You will not be expecting also, another special one coming into your life.=)

This post is dedicated to a dear colleague, who had just lost her baby 2 months ago... I have been thinking of doing this post quite a while since the incident happened..I am not yet a mother, but as a woman, I am also sad for you.

Akak, "adanya kita di sini kerana ada yang telah pergi. Allah Maha Mengetahui"

Al-fatihah.

Syariah Money - The Local Dinars (credit to Dr Ahamed Kameel Mydin Meera)

Wanie: "Jom shopping"

Bestie: "Nope. Aku nak beli dinar bulan ni"

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This is among the conversations I always have with my best friend who's in Penang, that apparently introduces me to gold investment. I heard about it quite a while before decided to start this thing. Thanks to the founder of Inspirasiemas.com, also currently a close friend of mine, who has been very supportive and inspiring in guiding me through this journey of gold investment. Yes, I am still crawling.

In my humble opinion, while we are still young, (hehe.24 is not young anymore) it is wise to start keeping what you called assets that would definitely help you to survive in this evolving world. And I also believe, it is also crucial for us, women to have our own separated physical assets, may it be house, car or even gold. Looking at the family institutions in this century, we may not know what is heading in front of us. Although men are the breadwinners but women also need to be seen as independent. =) I am so grateful that we are in Malaysia, a country with a stable politic and economic growth but do not be too secured because we have heard a lot of nuisances from other countries nowadays on their downturns of economics and etc.

Anyway, while I was reading The Edge Malaysia (a weekly economic paper), I have come across an article about our local dinars, which is currently popular nowadays. Also, based on the seminar that I have attended yesterday, I’d like to briefly share what I have learnt.

Do Understand the Basic Concept

I was quite shocked when our Deputy Finance Minister Datuk Awang Adek Hussin highlighted that gold dinar is not and will not be a legal tender in Malaysia. He challenged Kelantan government to prove that monetary system based on the gold dinar could work. But we have to admit, in reality, with the present laws in our country, the gold dinar as money in Kelantan is unlikely to succeed. Why? Do bear with me reading this article further. =)

Ahamed Kameel Mydin clarified that gold dinar and silver dirhams are understood as syariah money, although in origin they’re not from muslim countries. Their origin was to Persian gold denarius and Persian silver drachma in Rome. Our Prophet Muhammad accepted the two coins as a monetary standard for Islamic trade, business and financial transactions. It is formed in basis for syariah laws in business transactions (muamalat), capital punishments (hudud), marriage dowry (mahar) as well as the compulsory religious alms (zakat).

The first Islamic gold dinars were issued by Abd Al-Malek Marwan, where he changed the Roman inscription on the coin with those based on Quranic verses. What I adore about Abd Al-Malek Marwan is that he had managed to cause this Islamic coins to circulate wider until they could even replaced the dominant Roman coin in Christian Europe. How did he manage to do that? He minted the coins in a large quantities, imposed a strict quality control, and severe punishment for any kind of tampering of the coins. Plus, at that time, there was a freedom of choice. There wasn’t any legal tender law. Ahamed Kameel believes that when there is a freedom of choice, good money would drive out bad money.

Freedom of Choice

Thus, we can see that with the legal tender law in place, bad money (RM) would drive out good money (dinar & dirham) in circulation. This is what we called as the Gresham’s Law. Bank Negara can’t do anything because it knows with legal tender law; gold will not be circulated in as money. So how could Datuk Awang Adek Hussin challenged Kelantan in such a way when dinar and dirham are obviously can’t be circulated as money?

But Perak government was clever enough to first issue these coins as investment products instead of alternative money. Other than that, these Islamic coins can be used as Mahar, presents, medals, awards and so on. Perak knows that it can’t break any federal laws. ;) The gold dinar project is expected to boost Perak’s and later Malaysia's economy in the long run.

The Powerful Gold

There was this one time where gold can only be traded with US Dollar. It was 1/35 oz of gold per dollar. Other currencies were not required to be backed by gold, like the dollar was. Why? It was because America needed to keep their exchange rates within the US dollar stable.

Among other justifications that I could conclude are:

1. Current global monetary and economic crisis that are continuing nowadays have make people begun to realize that gold and silver are safe havens for their savings.

2. The price of silver and gold are expected to rise further, making it an excellent investment choice.

3. Hyperinflation is expecting to come in the current global economic scenario, nothing other than silver and dinar than can protect us from inflation.

4. Increasing of the vulnerability of the US dollar, political chaos in the Middle East, ongoing nuclear crisis in Japan and global climatic change are all putting severe stress on the global monetary and economic condition. Gold and silver will continue to make strides.

Government’s Initiative

Let’s just pray that our current government, together with Bank Negara would make some sort of enforcement to parallel gold-based monetary system, like what our beloved Tun Mahathir also agreed of. Looking at the unstable global economy nowadays, we need to get ourselves prepared. Bear in mind, it is not about the inscriptions on the coins that matter, but the gold content of the coins. Believe it or not, we have a lot of our Chinese friends who have also started to invest on these silver and dinar coins, and unimaginably, in terms of gold investment as a whole, they’re the leading investors Malaysia, especially in silver.

Well, I have a lot to write, but I don’t want to bore people of this blog with so many details on gold and silver. Haha. I am currently working on a page where I will share everything that I know, have read and have learnt about gold and silver from every reliable sources that I could get. The blog, InshaAllah will be in Malay writing as I only want to keep wanie-theinsider as my personal place to share random thoughts, as well as to improve and brush up my English. =)

What Took You So Long, Dear?



I had an awesome day last Sunday with my housemates Shasha and Ja. Guess what, for the first time in my entire life, I went to the PWTC book fair. =p

Ja was fully utilising her time while waiting for us

Shasha was patiently waiting for the drawing to finish

I didn’t spend much, I only bought few exercise books for my tuition class and a ‘Solusi’ magazine edition 31 (RM1 cheaper than the normal price). And then Shasha and I went to this booth where there were 2 cartoonists offering their services to draw pictures of yourself. Hehe. So we waited there for almost 1 hour for our turns. Tired we were, but it was worth the waiting. =)

Enough about the book fair story, in today’s post I’d like to share an article in this month’s ‘Solusi’ magazine. It is written by Dato’ Dr Hj Mohd Fadzillah Kamsah. But first, I’d like to start off with a situation:

The perfect Aminah

Aminah is a very beautiful girl. Her voice could make all guys melt. Her body figure is everyman’s dream. She has a very good people skill that can influence everyone she meets. With her capability of managing her emotional and physical constraints, she is somewhat a typical ‘dream girl’ for almost everyman in this world.

Aminah has been in few love relationships but none of them worked out. She started to wonder, is she not beautiful enough to win a guy’s heart? Is she not having the quality of being a wife to someone? Why do the relationships she had never last?

What Aminah hasn’t realize all this while is, for her to be in a long lasting relationship (that brings to marriage, of course) is not just based on what the heart says. It is not as easy as just to grab any other guys that she met or that she has known for just less than 24 hours to be her lover.

The perfect Aminah never realize that it takes effort to find a guy that at least 60% aligns with her needs and interests. It takes hard work to figure out whether a guy really at least 50% understands her. It takes sincere prayer & ‘tawakkal’ to Allah to ‘give’ her a guy that would be strong enough to guide and prepare her for the afterlife.

Do Not Define It As Being Choosy Or Picky.

Well, for guys who are reading this, please do not get me wrong. I am just creating an ideal situation. It may also happen to a guy who hasn’t yet found the ONE to be with him for the rest of his life. Of course this rarely happens in daily lives. A perfect girl like Aminah can only be found in novels, I presume. But like I have said before, let’s think of an ideal perfect girl like Aminah. =)

Dato’ Dr thinks that there are few steps that we may want to do after we’re certain of our set of requirements that we’ve made. Of course, this does not only apply to those who think that they’re my ‘imiginary Aminah’, it applies to all, no matter what your gender is, how you look like and etc.

So here you go:

1. Pray fervently and exert accurately

It is Allah who decides who our mates are, but we have the right to make an effort to find one, with the permitted shari’a. Although we have prayed hard, it is still not granted, do not give up, as Prophet Muhammad once said: “Indeed a person’s prayer will not be spared from 3 things: the sins are forgiven, the prayer is granted in accordance with the request, and sometimes the prayer is not being not granted but being delayed instead”

2. Observe the people around you

Everyone will have mates that Allah has promised. Believe it or not, she or he might be the one who is actually close to you. Who has known you for years maybe? =)

3. Do not easily give up

Those who despair of finding a mate will start to make out many impressions. It could bad or good. Whatever it is, never stop having faith in Allah.

4. Fill the heart with particular prayers

Here Dato’ Dr has stressed that prayers can become bulwarks to the heart. Either it is ‘Istikharah’ or other normal prayers that we do, let us do it properly, and not just for the reason of we’re forced to do it.

5. Love all the people around you

A loving person will have the power to attract other people to love him. Love as in love towards our own brothers & sisters in Islam are something that we need to practice in our daily lives. Do not focus in finding the mate here, but let’s hope that at least we are portraying what Islam wants us to portray..=)

6. Purify the heart

Do not let resentment and jealousy conquer your heart. Everything happens for reasons; things that are beyond us as a human being to foresee.

7. Always ready to meet your ‘mate’ at any time

Dress well everywhere you go. Possess good mannerism in everything you do. Always put trust in Allah.

8. Try to be the features of what a man and a woman would dream of

Improve all the weaknesses and try to be grateful and consistent with what that have been conferred by Allah.

So this is what I can summarize based on my understandings. If you want to know more, go and buy you a copy of ‘Solusi’. You won’t regret. =)

“O Causer of the Causes; O He who opens the doors (to opportunities); O’ He who gives an answer to the call from wherever (He is called).” Ameen.

What Does the word 'Perfect' Actually Means?

*I salute Steve Jobs*

There was a fat, short girl once said "I am not beautiful. No guy in his right mind would want to date me or even look at me."

Okay. Maybe this is a bad intro for today's post. I'll try with this one:

There was a pretty, fair lady once came to me and said "I'm driving a Prius now. I earn 6 figures per month. I took music class; I do spa and saloon every week and have travelled almost all around the world. All guys would kneeled at me and beg to marry me. Oh yes, have I told you that I am only 28 years old?"

The Perfect Is The Enemy Of The Good.

I am a very observant girl. I can see flaws from others very quickly, and their perfections as well. But luckily I am not a judgmental person. Maybe that’s why I am not bothered with people with bad a taste of fashion, their childish way of thinking and even the way they control their emotions. No, I am not bothered with you, as long as you’re not affecting me. Full stop.

There is this one girl in my office, a consultant from Australia (well she’s actually a Malaysian) who seems to be very effective in delivering her work in a timely manner. She leads the Change Management team in my department where its basis of work is making sure all engagements within the stakeholders are happening smoothly and ensuring our intention of transforming the institution for the better is well delivered. She’s very active and is always a positive thinker. I asked her one day “Hey, do you mind if I ask, how you actually manage the people you meet every day, with different characters and needs? I can see that you’re always smiling and can handle pressure very well.”

“Well, everyone is not perfect.” she smiled and me. “You’ll learn and get more matured as you grow. But with one condition: take failures as something good and eager to improve from the mistakes you’ve done. Hunger for knowledge, thirst for new things.”

As cliché as it sounded, I have to agree with her. Everyone is facing their own challenges. But as time goes by, we grow to be more matured that we have never been before.

I read an article on how to control perfectionism and here are the simple steps that I have summarized based on my understanding:

1. Forgive yourself for your short comings: If you can’t deliver as people expected you to, don’t blame yourself too much. Keep telling yourself that it’s okay; there is still room for improvement.

2. Focus on what is really needed: It there really a need to spend thousands of RM to do plastic surgery just to get your dream guy’s attention? Is there really a need to be so perfect that you need to miss your timeline? Wise people will not think perfect, they think smart.

3. Results VS Judgments: Don’t let others judgments affect your results. Study to learn, not just getting perfect score, exercises for health, not just to lose weight. A perfectionist always concern with others who perceive imperfection. That is bad.

Being Imperfect is Okay. It Is Sometimes A Beauty.

A rough, ugly oyster has a pearl inside it. An old mango can be a seed when it falls on the ground. A heavy rain gives lives to crops.

A perfect thing for you, may not be perfect for me. It carries different definitions to different people. So does the definition matters anymore?

Dear friends, find the beauty of the imperfections in you. =’)

No, I Don't Think I Am Greedy

"Don't let the opinions of the average man sway you. Dream, and he thinks you're crazy. Succeed, and he thinks you're lucky. Acquire wealth, and he thinks you're greedy. Pay no attention. He simply doesn't understand." Robert G. Allen

5 years back, when I have decided to take Maybank scholarship although I knew my job scope wasn't going to be the same with my study background, many friends said that I went for money. The answer was yes. I didn't get JPA scholarship, I need financial assistance to pay my study and book fees.

Allah Never Make Things With No Reason

Few months ago when I have decided to do private tuition, many people think that my salary doesn't pay me enough. Now this time, my answer is NO. It is entirely not about money. It is about passion. I enjoy teaching since I was a little girl. Right after SPM I taught my cousin few PMR subjects and in matriculation, I was a tutor to my classmates. To me, there is never enough in seeking knowledge; even a standard one subject can give you a big impact. I didn't hesitate when I was offered to teach at Maths Clinic, Cheras Branch because I know this would be a big experience for me. Thinking about it back, its location to my house is quite far and if I compare the allowance with the petrols,  the toll charge and etc, it wouldn't be worth it financially. But I believe many of you would agree with me: Learning is the beginning of wealth. Learning is the beginning of health. Learning is the beginning of spirituality. Searching and learning is where the miracle process all begins.

I didn't say the stuffs that I have learnt for 4 years in university, were useless. Health and science are something that is practically used in life. Everything you speak is science. Everything you live with will be related to health. But in the place where I am working right now, I am gaining extra. I am learning to control myself, physically and mentally. I am brushing up my communication, my decision making skill and also I am hoping to improve my personality and attitude.Also, other skills as well i.e. I have figured that how interesting microsoft is, it can really challenge your skill and you can do almost anything with microsoft. The founder, Bill Gates is a total 'lagendary'. So the decision I have made 5 years back, at first was due to money problem, turned out to be fruitful for me. Praise to none other than Allah Himself.

This post is totally not about me bragging around on how ambitious and positive I am. My message is, no matter what you do to gain extra money..people may see you as greedy, but trust me, you know yourself more than anyone else. As long as the syari'e is not being violated, you are what you think you are.=)

Malaysia vs Mauritius. Maybe We Can Learn From Them?

I have plans to travel all around the world. In 5 years time, I wish to go to Mauritius. Well some of you may think that it's quite long to wait, but I have a lot of expanses that I need to deal with since I started working, (plus I sure want to do my Umrah before travelling to other places) so I have to start saving for this big 'project'. hehe. I have been studying about Mauritus quite sometime. For those who doesn't know, it is located in the Indian Ocean, southeast cost of Africa.

The Strategies That Wowed Me

Well anyway, today's post is not about Mauritius. If you want to know more about what's interesting in Mauritius, you may do some googling for it.=) Just now, while I was reading this week's 'The Edge', I have came across an article by Prof Joseph E Stiglitz, a professor in Columbia University and a Nobel laureate in economics. Mauritius, is neither particularly rich nor on its way to budgetary ruin. Nonetheless, it has spent the last decades successfuly building a diverse economy, a democratic political system and a strong social safety net. Here are two points captured on Mauritius success stories that we may want to rather learn from:

1. Unlike us: that's very popular with our own crude oil, Mauritians have no exploitable natural resources. So they are their own asset. You can find free education up to university for all of the citizens, transport for schoolchildren and free healthcare, including heart surgery for all, there, at Mauritius. It is not whether we can afford to provide free healthcare or education for all, but it is actually about how to organize the society.

2. Apparently, Mauritians also believe that spending a lot of money for military is a waste. While we have a lot (millions of RM spent for millitary submarines) of 'submarine warfare', Mauritious thinks that defense systems are not all about spending.

Mauritians have increased per capita income from less than US$400 around the time of independence to more than US$6,700 (RM20, 470) today

But Not Everyone Is Perfect

This is not to say that Mauritius is without problems:

1. Its worries today is on imported food and energy inflation. So some intervention i.e. stabilising prudential banking regulations is being considered.

2. US until now, still occupies one of Mauritius offshore islands, Diego Garcia, as a naval base without compensation, officially leasing it from UK; expelled its citizens and refuses to allow them to return. This is totally a violation of international law.

Well, this post may bore some people, but I hope it could add to our knowledge on economy and growth.=)

Welcome To Our Family, Sister.

"Islam is a beautiful religion. I've been studying it, especially after all the trials and turbulence in my life."

Daphne Iking converted to Islam

Allah Almighty

"Acik Yot, are you guys okay over there?"

"Thanks wanie. We're all fine, Alhamdulillah. Last night we had a slight concussion here."

11th March 2011, 9.30pm

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"Wanie do you know that there's a big disasterous tsunami in Japan??. Oh my God..this time it's really-really big! Kak Sila called me just now and told me that she was shocked to hear the news"

11th March 2011, 3.30pm

I was in a midst of arranging big meetings for next week when i heard the news from Pushpa (my colleague). Is this world going to end soon? Alllah Almighty, this is one of your signs.

But Alhamdulillah, my aunt's family together with her ragdoll cat are fine in Osaka. I hope they won't be affected by the tsunami. My friends in Miyagi are also safe...

Can't Wait For Me New Boyfriend



i Understand

Although hidden, it still holds very noticeable vibration. It can affect the mind as well as controlling the action. Seriously, love can change bitter to sweet, moving dust to gold, cloudy to clear, sickness to be healed..It can change the prison into a very nice mansion, the pain we feel becomes pleasure, and our anger will turn  into mercy. It is so powerful that it could soften the metal, destroying coral reefs, raise the dead, and breathed life into a man and make a leader. (Jalaludin Rumi)

.....And i Know Whatever Happens, There's Always Faith Along My Way

Please note that i do not capitalized the word 'I'..lowercase of i shows the feminism side of me, it is written purely on emotions. i am emotional now. T_T

I Am Paranoid



Had a team lunch today with my fellow consultants from Australia. Unfortunately my boss wasnt there so i had to make myself comfortable with them. Hehe. There were many interesting experiences shared during our lunch at Nandos. I was listening with interest hoping that i could be like one of them one day. Well, I still have a long journey to go. *sigh*

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I am scared of time right now. Its like chasing me and i feel like drowning...in time. Everything is too fast for me to catch up. I wish there's a 'pause' button in life where i can press and time will pause for me to catch up some air..seriously i dont know what is the particular reason of me being scared, but i'm just..scared. scared. My career, my love relationship, my family..I'm scared of whats happening around the world right now. Christchurh,Libya,Bahrain, China...and even Malaysia.

I am scared of the distance of my relationship with You..

Long Live Cairo

A Cake For My Bestfriend

It has been quite a long time since my last post.

Well to re-cap what has happened today:

Alhamdulillah, i managed to finish up my 2nd document (this time is a work instruction for our IT Project Request Management) that most probably will be endorsed and filed in Maybank.=). It took me 2 solid days to actually come out with the 10 pages doc; i didnt have enough sleep last nite and had no lunch but starbucks coffee today although my tummy was screaming for food! I was infront of my pc since morning struggling for ideas to come out. Although it was nothing much but as a new joiner with a zero background in banking and IT, i'm glad i have managed to finish it!=D I am now eagerly waiting for comments from my superiors before proceeding to board.

Tonight i was suppose to have a BM tuition class with my cute students Afif and Afifah. But it was raining like dogs and cats just now so the mother had to cancel tonight's slot. Thank God, I myself am tired and i hate to teach without having a 100% energy for teaching. It would be hard for the kids as well. So lets lock it tomorrow night!;)

Anyway,

Last CNY i went back to Muar for short holidays. What pleased me most apart from meeting mak abah adik and oteh (our new family, a persian kitten) is to celebrate my best friend's belated birthday. As promised, i baked a very nice tasty (according to her, hehe) oreo cheese cake for us. Well, she's not a big fan of cheese but i thought of trying something new.haha. I gave her copies of Maher Zain's and Sami Yusuf's cds, hoping that through those genre of songs, she could learn better English at the same time. I was scared at first she wouldnt like the present, but it turned out that she loved it so much.

So, i shall leave you guys with 2 pictures that speak millions of words. Good nyte night all.

Wanie

There Are So Many Undecided Things In My Life

This post is for those who know Gilmore Girls.=)

"will you marry me?"

"what??wow..umm...wow.."

"well, is there a yes between the wows?"

I have always been a big fan of gilmore girls. Been watching it since highschool. I have managed to buy the DVD for season 7. Planning on buying season 6 next month after salary.hehe.

I think Lauren Graham (Lorelai) and Alexis Bledel (Rory) are a good mother-daughter combination. I adore Rory so much. She's like what i had always dreamed to be when i was little. The dialogue above is taken from one scene when Rory's boyfriend, Logan, a rich spoilt boy who recently got a real job in IT world proposing to her. Rory has just graduated from Yale and is starting her job as a journalist for Barrack Obama tour.

Well, in ideal situation, there's nothing wrong to get married young. Logan's a rich guy, and Rory has just graduated from Yale. But unfortunately for them, Rory has to say no. To say no for her moving to San Francisco (which is far away from Stars Hollow). To say no to be getting married without really be prepared to be a wife. To say no for her not having a stable job when marrying Logan. I think Rory has made a pretty brilliant decision. Marriage is not just about love.

"I love you Logan, yes I really do..."

"but?"

"but there are so many undecided things in my life.."

This is also a reminder to me not to rush things in life...I am only 24. I have so many things that i need to achieve in life..

When The Going Gets Tough, The Tough Get Going!

When i was a final year student, i wondered everyday: what will happen after everything has ended? To be honest i never like my thesis year. I am NOT an outdoor person. And my thesis required me to go outdoor testing repellent on mosquitoes. But Alhamdullillah, i had a very supportive supervisor and colleagues to hold me all the way.

I thought my thesis writing year was the toughest but obviously i was wrong. Working life is not exciting at all. It requires you to be independent, extremely tough inside and outside. Especially when you're working in a high performance team where all the bosses have high expectations on you. My first month of working was filled with tears but as time goes by, i'm getting used to whatever i'm going through right now. Time allows you to learn. Time teaches you to be strong.

I love to read the story of Adolf Hitler. Most people call him the father of Satan. He was the one responsible for the World War II. He killed 11 million innocent people. But let's not take that as a good example. He always had a passion for art. He failed twice when taking art examinations at an art school in Vienna. When everyone didn't think he ever had talent in art, he himself believed that he could do anything he wanted to do. After the school rejected and barred him from taking any examinations for the second time, he lived life a hard way. By selling postcards with his own drawings and sketchings, he managed to live. Life was even harder when his mother, Klara had passed away due to cancer.

Well, that was just one of the chapters in his life. When i have time, i'll share more.=)

What i'm trying to say in today's post is that at any circumstances...in any days of the year..you can't run away from obstacles. Different people are granted with their own experiences in life. Endure, learn and just live with it.

This is also a note to myself. Allah knows what is best for each of His slaves.